The dizzying art of folding representations of corners into corners.
Something that failed to come to words in my conversation with you was the works relationship to shame, perhaps due to a sense of embarrassment itself or a fear that it would be too heavy for comfort. This relationship to shame is in fact the main reason for being drawn into the corner.
I have been interested in shame, in particular shame in relationship to the construction of a homosexual identity. Didier Eribon wrote a book entitled Insult and the Making of the Gay Self. I found this book to be an endless source of inspiration and enlightenment. My senior thesis at the University of California Berkeley for the Interdisciplinary Studies Field Major, my second major after Practice of Art, was entitled Participation of Shame and the "Feminine Stigmata" in Gender Surveillance of the "Male Invert." It was a deeply personal and cathartic text that I believe is still playing out in my work today.
The physical act of shoving ones nose into the corner connotes punishment and it puts the actor into a severely vulnerably state where one's sense of sight is rendered useless to void off what may be coming from behind to breathe down your neck: one is “cornered”. I use to have this fear that the devil was constantly behind me breathing down my neck, and when I would turn he would turn in sequence with me, always right behind me almost kissing the back of my ear.
Horse Blinders
Whereas Mountain Base was about repudiating or severely limiting vision by means of zooming in so close that vital periphery information is denied, a sort of "blinder" vision, Inside Mountain Looking Out antithetically imbues the viewer with a supernatural vision. If one is to take the title for its word: Inside Mountain Looking Out, then the viewer finds themselves in the inside of a mountain looking out through stone and dirt. This is really what the work is all about, a sort of naive child's triumphant over being forced to stick their nose into the corner,
and having the walls simply evaporate to reveal the world outside both thrilling and blissful, and where there should be an absence of sight one finds deep perspective, in which one must squint to make out the birds far in the distance.
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